If I had the Time

If I had the time I would eat a better breakfast
If I had the time I would blog weekly
If I had the time I would take more pictures
If I had the time I would take a shower till the water ran cold
If I had the time I would exercise longer
If I had the time I would read a chapter of scriptures to my boys, rather than just a page
If I had the time I would then read on my own
If I had the time I would stop and smell the roses
If I had the time I would plant those roses
If I had the time I would practice the piano
If I had the time I would cuddle with my boys instead of yelling at them to go to bed
If I had the time I would Pray more
If I had the time I would pray until my knees bleed for my boys to be safe and good and healthy
If I had the time I would go back to school
If I had the time I would make awesome dinners every night and put Little Cesare's out of business
If I had the time I would bake more bread
If I had the time I would call old friends and catch up
If I had the time I would lay here and feed this baby without thinking about all the things I "should" be doing...

All for Him

The Lewis home was rockin this weekend. We not only celebrated the Fourth, but our little boy too!

Bridger was blessed with all his sweet family to support him.

The entire Porter Clan made the trek up the hill. We pitched tents in the backyard and threw most of the hoodlums out there! Let's do the roll call, shall we?

Thos? Here.

Nat, Eda, Corinne, Maddy, Olivia, and Isabella? Here.

Dave, Jess, Daisy, Tatum, Brodee, Peyton, Lily, Daxton? Here.

Trev, Annie, Porter, Tate, Brooks, and the man of the hour, Bridger? Here.

Matt, Courtney and Kenzy? Here.

Morgan, Lauren, Emery, and the still in the oven, Paige? Here.

H.P. and Reda? Wouldn't miss it!

Beau, Joni, Liam, Mia and Kendyl? Here.

Brody, Brek, and Briston? Here.

Charlie and Carol? Here with bells on!

It was a wild and crazy weekend.

But the best part of all, even better than the fireworks, was watching our last little baby in our family get the sweetest blessing from his daddy.

I looked around the room and gave thanks for every single one of those people.

How blessed this little man is to have so many people who LOVE him.

EVERYONE of Bridger's Cousins were there on Sunday! On both side of the family. Everyone! Not very often in our lives do we get to say that...

I wanted to freeze the moment.

Catch it in a bottle.

Wrap it in a blanket.

So when the hard days come, as they always do,

I can

Drink it up,

Take it in,

and Cuddle into it.

Thank you, my fantastic family, for making the effort to be here.

I love you!

Bridger Loves you!

We love you!

Our New Family Picture

Some Rockin Men

My Rockin Man

Getting ready for his big day

The Whole Crew!

Have you ever seen such Lovely

Little People?

The Lewis Lodge...

now includes a camp ground!

PorterHouse 2010

I think I found the cure for those postpartum blues...

the California Sun.

No joke.

Two weeks postpartum and what do I do?

Load up my itty bitty baby and his three brothers and we take off heading west until we could go west no farther.

The Porter Family Beach week has always been the first week in June, and we were not going to miss it... even if baby brother's "paint was still wet".

This year's destination was Oxnard, Ca.

It was absolutely lovely!

Well, from my seat on the couch looking out. I spent the vast majority of the time there in our beach house looking out at the ocean while feeding a brand new baby.

That was in no way a complaint!

I was surrounded by a multitude of my most favorite people (but not my MOST favorite one, trev stayed at home to hold the fort down) to keep me company and keep a watchful eye on my other boys.

We were taken care of so well!

Lots of helpful hands to hold our baby or take the big boys out to the water.

If Bridger was not in my arms being fed, he was being adored by his aunts and uncles, or cuddled next to Grandpa or Yaya.

We were welcomed by Lauren and Morgan to share their room. Morgan was such a good sport. The poor guy had to sleep in the same room as his nursing sister in law and her four kids! He deserves a medal in my book.

Along with hanging out on the beach, Courtney found a farm not too far from our house that you can pick your own fruit and veggies.

We ventured out to find what we could pick.

The boys LOveD it!

Bridger was left in the caring arms of grandma and grandpa. Mom insisted that I get out a bit.

We had a great time, and picked lots and lots of strawberries, that the boy devoured!

Here are some pics of the trip... thank you my sweet family for taking such good care of us!

I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you!

Picking Strawberries...you would think it was Easter and they were hunting for eggs!

All the cousins! Look hard and you'll find Brooks...


Bridger's favorite beach buddie



My Beach Boys


I threatened him to not get wet, we were loading up to head home!
One last moment to take it all in...
I just LovE these little PeOpLE

Thanks mom and dad for making another beach week so awesome and making such an effort to get us there!

And thanks Thossy for getting my little family home safe and sound. You RocK!

Bridger Beau Lewis

At 6:16 am on May19th, Bridger Beau joined his brothers as a Lewis.

His story is an awesome one.

Not for it's twists and turns or dramatic unfolding, but for it's calm and serenity.

It was truly an honor to have him.

I have rarely felt as close to heaven. He has a different spirit about him.

He has a sense of wisdom.

I know that sounds silly to some, but to me, it fits him.

I can not express the gratitude I feel toward my Heavenly Father for him.

Bridger was welcomed into this world by his father, both his Grandfathers, and both of his Grandmothers... (and almost two of his aunts;)

and as we waited for him to arrive we chatted about the family who were there we could not see but only feel.

How loved he is! How loved we all are. Our families are sealed together in such a tight and everlasting way.

How blessed we are.

Here are some pictures of our little man.

Enjoy them

I have

Waiting... waiting...

Worth every moment

Daddy and his boy

The grandpas first look

Take us home daddy

Tate and Bridger

Porter and Bridger

Brooks and Bridger

Daddy and Bridger

The Brothers Lewis

Thank you, Thank you, for all the help our little family has been given!

Thank you mom and dad Lewis for your love and time.

Eda and Yaya for trying SO hard to be here for him, and loving on our Brooks when he needed it so badly.

Thank you Marci for waking up so very early and sitting with our boys.

Thank you mom and dad for staying with us, loving us, and helping us when we so desperately needed it.

Thank you Porter, Tate, and Brooks for being the awesome big brothers that you are!

Thank you to our sweet family and dear friends for all the prayers, love and FOOD that has been given in our behalf.

Thank you Wendy, for delivering yet another healthy and strong boy into our family, and Sheri, our amazing nurse, who i will forever be grateful for.

Thank you Trever, for giving me another perfect little person, whom I could not love more.

Thank you to my Father in Heaven for Blessing me so greatly, that I stand amazed at His kindness.

I needed a good Laugh!

Oh Baby...

It's begun, the aches and pains, the swollen feet, the constant lower back throbbing, the inability to find a comfortable sleeping position, the continual hunger and nagging nausea, horrific heartburn and overall lack of desire to be pleasant to ANYoNe.
It's the beginning of the end, this baby is coming, and this last month will be a battle of endurance.

As I sat today at my kitchen table looking out into the field behind our house, I felt an urgency to sit and write about the little guy I'm carrying and tell him about the last nine months we've had together. Before the next few weeks clouds my memory and paints this experience a different color.

This baby has been a joy.

It has been an honor to have him as my constant companion.

Has it been an "easy" road? no.

There has been many scary moments. Many prayers in his behalf, in our behalf. He has been the topic of many heartfelt pleads. Yet through every "bump", we have been blessed.

The first few months were difficult, a test of patients. If the past is the best predictor of the future, my body should not have kept him. With every successful pregnancy, I have paid the price of an unsuccessful one.

He was my gift.

My merciful miracle.

With every movement, every hick up, every kick, I am reminded how blessed I am.

How I was not lost amongst my Father in Heaven's children. How neither was he.

So, yes. The next few weeks will be trying, the thought of delivery daunting. But I will be thankful. I will be happy to bear this burden. I will continually be grateful I have him with me,

that our family will be blessed with another sweet spirit.

Another, would be priesthood holder.

So take your time little guy, know that you are loved and looked forward to. Grow healthy and strong. Know your mommy and daddy love you. That you have brothers, grandmas and papas, aunts and uncles, many many cousins, and dear friends who all love you. Who have prayed for you and worried about you. Who you will be blessed because of, and they will be blessed by you.

We will see you soon, kiss your sweet face, and feel and recognize your spirit and know that you are ours.